There are many aspects of my work as a spiritual medium. Although all areas of my work are gratifying, I feel very blessed when I am able to spend time with the dying. Millie invited me to her house because she was terminally ill and wanted to find comfort in her final days. She was not sure when she would die but knew her body was growing weaker. She had many questions about her transition and who would be waiting for her on the other side.
After her reading, it was very clear to her that she had many loved ones waiting to greet her on the other side, especially her husband who had died eight years earlier. Her husband gave her such specific information that by the end of our session, Millie felt great comfort. Before I left, I promised her that I would be back to check in on her. I went back several times. The first few times, Millie told me all about her past. In every story there was joy and laughter, but some stories were shaded in sorrow. At the age of eighty-six, Millie had lived a full life.
The last few times that I saw Millie, I suggested to her that we not talk of the past any longer but instead focus on the now. I explained to Millie that our visits will soon become part of our past, and I did not want to miss the time we had together.
Millie loved autumn. She loved the flowers, the coolness in the air and the smells of fall. We sat on her porch, taking notice of the changing season. Millie’s neighbors knew that she loved mums, so these friends dropped off beautiful mums on her porch. We took notice of the love that radiated from each visitor. As we sat there, we talked about the different colors within each flower. We looked out at her front yard, watched the beauty of the sky and found images in the clouds. I explained to Millie that these experiences are so very important because these will be her last images as her physical life comes to completion. These moments are no less important than the memories of long ago but instead hold the comfort of sitting together in the here and now. To be free of time is to be free of the psychological need of the past.
I received a call this morning that Millie died peacefully last night. Her death came long before her illness brought her pain and suffering. The last days that we spent together held a profound transformation of consciousness for both Millie and me. In Millie’s case this shift in consciousness happened so dramatically that she was able to let go. It is so important to see the beauty that surrounds us even in our darkest moments.
When I hung up the phone, I took a few moments to close my eyes. I could see Millie’s smiling face, and within this moment I was able to say goodbye.